Just Me

Just Me

well this is just me

today I am nothing more then an empty shell

I learned something that will forever

change my views on my life as it sits right now

I can not nor will not say what i learned

just that my heart is broken and my spirit crushed

I no longer feel like my life is anything more then a joke

the lies i have been living although not my

own still lies none the less

I know things i wish i didn't but can not change that i do

my heart feels like it has been removed

beaten with a hammer

then shoved back in place

I gave my all and it was for nothing

I have nothing to show for it and nothing gained from it

as always but hey that is just another

day in my life right..

It is OK though I am the Wolf

and I will make it through this

just like every time before

there is nothing out there that will ever hold be back and keep

me from being who I am

it may only detour the trip and slow it down

but it will never take me off that

path i know is the right one for me

I have been beaten and almost killed in the past

raped and made to feel like a belonging

rather then a human yet i am still here

I may be worn down and hurting inside

But i am still the Wolf

I will make it through this as I have everything else in my life

with or with out anyone by my side

It is not the first nor will it be the last time

I will have to over come such pains to survive

Well It is my own fault really

who else can i blame but me it was I who

decided to try a real life with a real family

how foolish of me honestly what was i thinking

I should of known better really i should of

but as always I did not listen to myself and moved forward

only to find myself here yet again