Good Morning

Good Morning Wolf Ville

Just taking a moment to tell ya how things are today

so far so good lol i woke like any other day

looked over saw him there sleeping grabbed the laptop

and proceeded to log into those darn Mafia Wars

Lord Knows i can not wait to long to get my money in the bank or

someone may rip me off wipe me out and steal my

fake millions lmao

yeah i know pathetic damn it how did this happen

I use to be such a stable well balanced adult

when did i become this cyber money hungry freak lol

you know it is bad when your nights are filled with damn that Default Don

I am so gonna get even with him for robbing my cyber casino

or

That losey Master enforcer creep who put the $8,000 cyber hit out on me

Most people in a real life relationship

are normally discussing how the day went

snuggling close to each other to watch TV or maybe actually

making love

Nope not us

We used to be some what normal like that once

I am not sure what happened to change it

But it did we went from having a relationship to just being

roommates in a warped kinda way bearly friends with benefits.

He is normally sucked in to dinner dash or some other game

Or surfing the profiles on MYB

It is almost like I must of done something wrong

or maybe he is just tired of me for one reason or another.

He claims he is not but his actions say otherwise lol.

Not all his fault I am sure I must of done something wrong.

Became unattractive to him something who knows.

Mean while i have started to turn to Tagged

I kinda not want to be on MYB very much any more

I not need to see i am not who he is surfing ya know what i mean lmao

I was never big on any of the games before just not my thing

but if i cannot have a real life i guess a cyber life will do right lol

So in comes Mafia Wars it a stupid game i guess but it is what i have to look

forward to it will be there always glad to see me lol

Happy i am on making those hits robbing the other families

and building my family stronger with each job i do.

Granted it will never tell me it is in love with me

but then again never has he lol so nothing missing there

And sure it wont tell me how beautiful i am today but there again

never has he either so nothing lost again.

But it will never tell me it has a head ache or it tired

or just plain forget im in the room either lmao

so score one for the Mafia lmao

I enjoy playing it cause it gives me something to do

being a red blooded over 30 American female

we all know that is the time when left idle to long we tend to seek out

affection or attention from others well i refuse to do that as i am a wolf

and loyal to the end so a game will just have to be my option

I love my Man with all my heart and if this is what we have

then i will just have to accept it and make the best of

what is being offered

He says i act like nothing he does is good enough

I so do not think that to be true in anyway

in fact i make it a point to tell him when i like what he is doing

so how can that be true

is it maybe possible that what he is trying really is not any different then

what has caused this down fall in our relationship to start with

He went from showing me he wants me to barely touching me

at all humm not a good thing their at all

He use to make me feel like i was important to him

But now i just feel like an old shoe he kicked under the bed and forgot about

To ask him he thinks it is all about sex with me

Well here is my view on that one

Yes i like sex nothing to hide there

But think about this

If all you were offered to start with was some sort of sexual comfort then it

it was jerked away completely what would you feel ??

well that is were i sit

never having been told he was in love with me

never hearing from his lips i was beautiful in anyway

All he ever offered was amazing sex then he took it away

so humm yeah i feel unwanted now

go figure .

That is why i turned to the games figured not gonna get

turned away by them so instead of dreaming of his arms around me

I now dream of my next move or attack on the games

sad i know but all the truth from my view of it

I am very sure his view would read a lot different

and i am also sure he to has he reasons for that neither of us being

wrong but both of us suffering from the end results of it.