I fell In Love but, it has been far from the best day of my life. If anything it was the single most frightening thing I have ever been through.
I finally found the one person I truly wanted to stand beside and, take on the world with! At first I was nervous and afraid to tell him. Then I did & it has been down hill ever since.
I told him I was in love with him & was met with silence. There are no words that could ever cut deeper or hurt more! Then to hear total silence from the one you Adore.
My heart shattered & my soul ached cause the one I love don't love me. I wanted to be everything he would ever need.
Now I battle every day trying to control the things I might say. I do not want to cause him any sort of pain so I try to keep my feeling all locked away.
Inside my soul a war does rage as my feelings and thoughts fight to escape. I try so hard to take back control to tame those emotion and save my soul.
I gave him my heart & soul that day and he just walked past and threw it away. I know I'm not perfect and far from a prize but what I had offered is real & for life.
As I lay down beside him each night I try not to look into his eyes. I don't want him to know just how much I have cried. He need not see the pain I hold inside.
To spite all of this I find myself still deeply in love & him with no feelings. No matter what I do no matter how hard I have tried I just can't push him out of my mind. I want him there as long as I can for he is the one I want to be with!
Even when he has finally moved on it will only be him that I will ever truly want!
So here I stand alone and, confused no place to hide ,no place to run to.
I finally found the one person I truly wanted to stand beside and, take on the world with! At first I was nervous and afraid to tell him. Then I did & it has been down hill ever since.
I told him I was in love with him & was met with silence. There are no words that could ever cut deeper or hurt more! Then to hear total silence from the one you Adore.
My heart shattered & my soul ached cause the one I love don't love me. I wanted to be everything he would ever need.
Now I battle every day trying to control the things I might say. I do not want to cause him any sort of pain so I try to keep my feeling all locked away.
Inside my soul a war does rage as my feelings and thoughts fight to escape. I try so hard to take back control to tame those emotion and save my soul.
I gave him my heart & soul that day and he just walked past and threw it away. I know I'm not perfect and far from a prize but what I had offered is real & for life.
As I lay down beside him each night I try not to look into his eyes. I don't want him to know just how much I have cried. He need not see the pain I hold inside.
To spite all of this I find myself still deeply in love & him with no feelings. No matter what I do no matter how hard I have tried I just can't push him out of my mind. I want him there as long as I can for he is the one I want to be with!
Even when he has finally moved on it will only be him that I will ever truly want!
So here I stand alone and, confused no place to hide ,no place to run to.
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